I am SO not the one to inspire a movement. Months ago, I outed myself as a fatblogger and wanted to use the blog as a journal for my progress. Well, yeah. Lots of things have happened since then and suffice it to say, I have not turned into fitblogger yet. I started working part-time in August then got a type II Diabetes warning, formerly called a diagnosis. Apparently the doctor did not officially label me as Diabetic in my medical chart, contrary to his verbal instructions to me. Jerk. For some reason, I chose that time frame to stop exercising regularly, add tons of sugar to my diet and gain back all the weight I lost last year by this time. Plus 4 ounces. I’m losing my sense of humor and positive outlook on this whole mess.
For over 40 years I have struggled with self-confidence. Many times I know the right answers deep down but I don’t seem to have the guts to stand for them. I know they’re the right ones because time seems to reveal that. And for a good many years of my past, the “christian” environment I submitted to didn’t necessarily encourage standing fast. So I finally feel like I’m coming out of a cave and wham! I let myself go back into crappy thinking.
I’m tired of anti-depressants, pain, anti-inflammatories, physical therapy, hormones, and insomnia. Sadly the things that are comforting to me are the things that cause all the problems–fried food and chocolate!
So here we go. Start over. Lets see how we do this year. On your mark, get set…GO! Step 1. Today’s weigh in…199.4 lbs